As I continue my journey with Cirque I have taken time to reflect on the changes my life has taken. No longer am I the world traveling gypsy. No longer do I constantly think ahead to my next job, my next ship, my next city. I have sprouted a few roots here in Lasvegasland. I am learning my neighborhood and don't rely solely on Daniel (my GPS) to get around. I have a general idea of where things are located.
In my not-so-distant past I lived several lives at once. I was really three different people. (All me, but different incarnations.) In one place I was a Suzy Homemaker type, wife and step-mother. In another I was Queen of the Seas where I mothered my brood of dancers and singers while living it up on my ships. Lastly I was the Stage Manager who was slightly jaded and who pined for the past "Glory Days."
As I try to weave these three together into the "new me," I have taken lots of time to reflect. It got me thinking of my whole life and all the "different people" I have been. You know what I mean, that person you were in high school while you struggled to find your identity, that slightly bolder person you were in college, the one who thought they knew it all after graduation. These are only my versions, everyone has their own path.. but I hope you see what I am saying.
I used to tell people, "I resist change." And I suppose that was true. But I realized several years ago that change is the only constant in my life. I actually seek out change. I still haven't really figured out what I want to be when I grow up. I am always up to try something new. This is not a bad thing, it's just how I live my life.
When I took the job at Cirque I knew things were going to change a lot. My lifestyle is different now. I have the excitement of an ever-changing job but coupled with a place to call home. Things have not all fallen neatly into place....yet. My husband, dog and the home I own are still all far away in Florida. I still have itchy feet because the travel bug is deep in my system. But so many of my "forever friends" live here that I feel connected and solid and loved.
A great friend of mine has been teaching me about living in the HereNow. This was an alien concept to me a few short months ago. I was programmed to always look ahead to my new job, my new ship, my new cast. Live this moment right now? Right this second? Why? I need to think about next week, next month, next year. Yeah.....no. It's hard work living in the moment. I am getting there. I'd say I live 70% in the HereNow. Not too shabby, as I think before it was maybe 10%. Seriously.
So here I am. In my living room, listening to Jane Says on the ipod while my roomie makes a sandwich in the kitchen. What will I do with the rest of my day off? Eh. I'll decide as it comes. I am right here, right now. Living and loving and BEING.
I am content. Thank you, Universe.
(and thank you, Sarah, for requesting a new blog post.)
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Wednesday, November 17
Monday, October 4
Awakening
A time comes in your life when you finally get it...when, in the midst of all your fears and insanity, you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out...ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on. Then, like a child quieting down after a tantrum, you blink back your tears and begin to look at the world through new eyes.
This is your awakening.
You realize it's time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appear over the next horizon. You realize that in the real world there aren't always fairy tale endings, and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you... and in the process a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that's OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.
You learn the importance of loving and championing yourself... and in the process a sense of new found confidence is born of self-approval. You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you - or didn't do for you - and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected.
You learn that people don't always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that everything isn't always about you.
So, you learn to stand on your own and to take care of yourself... and in the process a sense of safety and security is born of self-reliance.
You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties... and in the process a sense of peace and contentment is born of forgiveness.
You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. You begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really stand for.
You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you begin to discard the doctrines and values you've outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with.
You learn that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a "consumer" looking for your next fix.
You learn that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era, but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.
You learn that you don't know everything, it's not your job to save the world and that you can't teach a pig to sing. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that martyrs get burned at the stake.
Then you learn about love. You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them be. You learn that alone does not mean lonely.
You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn to distinguish between guilt and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO.
You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.
You learn that your body really is your temple. You begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin to eat a balanced diet, drink more water, and take more time to exercise.
You learn that being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so you take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So you take more time to laugh and to play.
You learn that, for the most part, you get in life what you believe you deserve, and that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophecy.
You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is different than working toward making it happen.
More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone, and that it's OK to risk asking for help.
You learn the only thing you must truly fear is fear itself. You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever happens you can handle it and to give in to fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms.
You learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of impending doom.
You learn that life isn't always fair, you don't always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting, good people... and you learn not to always take it personally.
You learn that nobody's punishing you and everything isn't always somebody's fault. It's just life happening. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to build bridges instead of walls.
You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you.
You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon the earth can only dream about: a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed, a long hot shower.
Then, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never, ever settle for less than your heart's desire.
You make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful possibility.
You hang a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind.
Finally, with courage in your heart, you take a stand, you take a deep breath, and you begin to design the life you want to live as best you can.
- - by Sonny Carroll
Tuesday, September 21
Birthday!
Yesterday was Zumanity's 7th anniversary! Hooray for Zumanity!!!
I also got the honor of running my track almost solo. I don't have my Emergency Response classes so I can't be alone when the High Risk (read: aerial artists) are onstage because if something happens, I would not know exactly what to do. It was still pretty awesome and I felt very good about it!
(insert some icky faces at the hotel/casino for cleaning out the grease traps and sewage tanks near the end of the show. The Wall of Stench crept into the theater and we basically ran for our cars at the end of the champagne toast!)
However... work is still going well. I still love it. I still think I have the best job in the world and couldn't be happier.
Today is also the last work day before my weekend. We are dark Wednesday and Thursday. Can I just take a moment to rave about how awesome it is to have two days off in a row??? I didn't know how much I missed it until it came into my life. I honestly can't remember the last time I had a two day weekend (on a REGULAR BASIS) in my line of work. It was probably a fall season at Utah Shakes. But even then, I am not sure it was on a regular basis. It's so nice to have both a day to relax and do nothing AND a day to get all my personal stuff done.
Hooray for growing up and getting a "real" job. Now don't get upset, all my Regional Theater peeps. I'm not saying a real job... I'm saying a "real" job. As is the majority of the population would not consider my job real any more than they consider your job real. Ha! Seriously, have you read this note? It's been making the rounds on Facebook. *facepalm*
Anyway, no need for this to turn into a rant. This is a happy space where I revel in my luck (skill??) at getting an awesome job with a fantastic company who cares deeply about their employees.
Even when I wake up in a black mood, I can still work myself out of it by talking about my work. I'm pretty lucky because I am willing to bet there is only a small percentage of the population who can do that!
Happy Birthday Zumanity! May you have a long and exciting life!!!!!!
I also got the honor of running my track almost solo. I don't have my Emergency Response classes so I can't be alone when the High Risk (read: aerial artists) are onstage because if something happens, I would not know exactly what to do. It was still pretty awesome and I felt very good about it!
(insert some icky faces at the hotel/casino for cleaning out the grease traps and sewage tanks near the end of the show. The Wall of Stench crept into the theater and we basically ran for our cars at the end of the champagne toast!)
However... work is still going well. I still love it. I still think I have the best job in the world and couldn't be happier.
Today is also the last work day before my weekend. We are dark Wednesday and Thursday. Can I just take a moment to rave about how awesome it is to have two days off in a row??? I didn't know how much I missed it until it came into my life. I honestly can't remember the last time I had a two day weekend (on a REGULAR BASIS) in my line of work. It was probably a fall season at Utah Shakes. But even then, I am not sure it was on a regular basis. It's so nice to have both a day to relax and do nothing AND a day to get all my personal stuff done.
Hooray for growing up and getting a "real" job. Now don't get upset, all my Regional Theater peeps. I'm not saying a real job... I'm saying a "real" job. As is the majority of the population would not consider my job real any more than they consider your job real. Ha! Seriously, have you read this note? It's been making the rounds on Facebook. *facepalm*
Anyway, no need for this to turn into a rant. This is a happy space where I revel in my luck (skill??) at getting an awesome job with a fantastic company who cares deeply about their employees.
Even when I wake up in a black mood, I can still work myself out of it by talking about my work. I'm pretty lucky because I am willing to bet there is only a small percentage of the population who can do that!
Happy Birthday Zumanity! May you have a long and exciting life!!!!!!
Saturday, September 18
Laugh
Working at Cirque is one of the most awesome jobs I have ever had in my entire life. It is interesting, fun, exciting although I still don't know half of what I will eventually. Sometimes being the n00b can be funny.....to others...
Allow me to relate this story from last night.
Niki and I are Stage Right. The show is maybe halfway over. We have just finished a cue and returned to the podium where we are stationed. (I should mention Niki is with me because I am still new and am still learning the ropes....read: she handles all the major problems while I blithely run the track cues.)
We are quiet, but it is warm backstage and we turn on the fan at our station. A few moments later a voice comes over radio: "Hey Rovers (that's us). One of you is sitting on the All Page button."
This is a button that makes our voices travel all over the theater/greenroom/offices. We aren't actually talking but the sound of the fan and the show are broadcasting in a This Is Spinal Tap way.
We look at each other. We look at our headsets. No lights are on. We are confused. I turn off my headset. Niki turns off her headset. (We discuss how the All Page button can get stuck sometimes)
"Stage Management, we can hear you over All Page. Turn it OFF"
We have eyes as big as saucers (at least I did) and we take our batteries out of our headsets. We discuss possessed headsets and what we can do. I giggle nervously.
Our boss appears next to us. We tell him we can't figure it out. We show him our headsets and blink in confusion (at least I did - Niki is much more seasoned that me and is not that freaked out.)
"Stage Management, you have GOT to turn off the All Page" says our Calling Stage Manager. Our Admin Stage Manager reports we are still broadcasting.
Niki and Gruber (boss) walk off to talk to Sound and try to figure out what has happened. As they are leaving I hear them say "fan" and "All Page Button". This makes me look at the fan. I suddenly notice there is a rack behind the fan. I look closer and I see one button is a brighter red than the others. It says ALL PAGE. I press the button, it goes back to regular red.
"I got it!" I hiss. Gruber and Niki come back over to me. "Oh yeah, there is an All Page button there" one of them remarks.
Gruber leaves. Niki and I blink at one another. We go off to do our next cue which brings us through the greenroom. Laughing artists tell us they could hear us trying to figure it all out. We blush and apologize. They tell us we are funny.
Things get back to normal and Niki says casually, "How many Stage Managers does it take to turn of an All Page?" We figure out the number is 5. More if you count the initial radio calls from non-Stage Managers.
I love my never-boring, sometimes-intimidating, crazy-silly-funny job. One day I will be good at it. One day....
Allow me to relate this story from last night.
Niki and I are Stage Right. The show is maybe halfway over. We have just finished a cue and returned to the podium where we are stationed. (I should mention Niki is with me because I am still new and am still learning the ropes....read: she handles all the major problems while I blithely run the track cues.)
We are quiet, but it is warm backstage and we turn on the fan at our station. A few moments later a voice comes over radio: "Hey Rovers (that's us). One of you is sitting on the All Page button."
This is a button that makes our voices travel all over the theater/greenroom/offices. We aren't actually talking but the sound of the fan and the show are broadcasting in a This Is Spinal Tap way.
We look at each other. We look at our headsets. No lights are on. We are confused. I turn off my headset. Niki turns off her headset. (We discuss how the All Page button can get stuck sometimes)
"Stage Management, we can hear you over All Page. Turn it OFF"
We have eyes as big as saucers (at least I did) and we take our batteries out of our headsets. We discuss possessed headsets and what we can do. I giggle nervously.
Our boss appears next to us. We tell him we can't figure it out. We show him our headsets and blink in confusion (at least I did - Niki is much more seasoned that me and is not that freaked out.)
"Stage Management, you have GOT to turn off the All Page" says our Calling Stage Manager. Our Admin Stage Manager reports we are still broadcasting.
Niki and Gruber (boss) walk off to talk to Sound and try to figure out what has happened. As they are leaving I hear them say "fan" and "All Page Button". This makes me look at the fan. I suddenly notice there is a rack behind the fan. I look closer and I see one button is a brighter red than the others. It says ALL PAGE. I press the button, it goes back to regular red.
"I got it!" I hiss. Gruber and Niki come back over to me. "Oh yeah, there is an All Page button there" one of them remarks.
Gruber leaves. Niki and I blink at one another. We go off to do our next cue which brings us through the greenroom. Laughing artists tell us they could hear us trying to figure it all out. We blush and apologize. They tell us we are funny.
Things get back to normal and Niki says casually, "How many Stage Managers does it take to turn of an All Page?" We figure out the number is 5. More if you count the initial radio calls from non-Stage Managers.
I love my never-boring, sometimes-intimidating, crazy-silly-funny job. One day I will be good at it. One day....
Friday, September 17
Revive
Well my weekend was lovely. Lots of nice time off and great conversations. Gruber's birthday party was fun! Mon Ami Gabi was YUM!
I have to be at work in an hour. Hope I remember my track! heh heh nah... I'll be okay. That's why I made a cheat sheet.
This week my semi-normal rotation has started. I am liking my schedule!
My BFF Nykol, got a job as Production Stage Manager of Blue Man Group in Chicago! She is moving there right this second. I just got off the phone with her. I am so excited for her. She deserves this awesome new adventure. I hope to find out more about her new gig as she gets integrated.
Not much circus stuff to talk about since I have been off for two days.
As for Life stuff. Yeah. Life is cool. I'm learning so much right now that I occasionally have to sit back and reflect so I don't lose any of it. I have been reading and re-reading a lot of emails this week as well as revisiting several conversations. So if I suddenly bring something up from before, know I am still processing it!
Blessings for a fantastic day!
I have to be at work in an hour. Hope I remember my track! heh heh nah... I'll be okay. That's why I made a cheat sheet.
This week my semi-normal rotation has started. I am liking my schedule!
My BFF Nykol, got a job as Production Stage Manager of Blue Man Group in Chicago! She is moving there right this second. I just got off the phone with her. I am so excited for her. She deserves this awesome new adventure. I hope to find out more about her new gig as she gets integrated.
Not much circus stuff to talk about since I have been off for two days.
As for Life stuff. Yeah. Life is cool. I'm learning so much right now that I occasionally have to sit back and reflect so I don't lose any of it. I have been reading and re-reading a lot of emails this week as well as revisiting several conversations. So if I suddenly bring something up from before, know I am still processing it!
Blessings for a fantastic day!
Thursday, September 16
Relax
So Wednesday and Thursday is my weekend. We are dark at work. (No shows) It is MOST EXCELLENT to have two days off in a row. I can't tell you the last time I worked in a job that was only 5 days a week. Regional theater is usually 6 days a week and cruise ships are 7 days a week while I am doing the install out on the ocean. I woke up early this morning and reveled in the thought that "today is mine too." All for me to do whatever I want. Ahhhh. Yup...still loving the job. Still raving about how awesome it is. Still grateful to the Universe (and the people largely responsible for getting me here).
Today is my dear friend Gruber's birthday. This is the first time I will have the chance to celebrate with him. Gruber was a summer pal until he hired me at Cirque. Back in the day he was my Production Assistant at Utah Shakespearean Festival. Then he was my Production Manager at Lake Tahoe Shakespeare Festival. Now he is my General Stage Manager at Zumanity.
I like it when friends stay in my life. Being a gypsy, that doesn't always happen. Wow. Remember what it was like before facebook when we had to call/text friends to stay in touch? I was even a letter-writer! Now I have lots and lots of old friends at my fingertips. Yeah, this is a lot easier....
Anyway, a small group of us are going to Mon Ami Gabi for dinner - it's in the Paris hotel. Hooray for French cuisine. After that there is a huge party at our place. Should be fun!
Happy Birthday JohnnyVirgo! I celebrate your existence every single morning. I LOVE YOU!!
Ok. That being said, it's time to go back to sleep. Or maybe make coffee and swim... or maybe work on my run sheet.... or watch 30 Rock.... soooo many choices. Ahhhhh... *contented sigh*
ohhhh psst... Wanna listen to what I am listening to right now? Go Here. (Richie's newest online track. Cool mashup. I believe he's calling it Zee Bob Cast)
Today is my dear friend Gruber's birthday. This is the first time I will have the chance to celebrate with him. Gruber was a summer pal until he hired me at Cirque. Back in the day he was my Production Assistant at Utah Shakespearean Festival. Then he was my Production Manager at Lake Tahoe Shakespeare Festival. Now he is my General Stage Manager at Zumanity.
I like it when friends stay in my life. Being a gypsy, that doesn't always happen. Wow. Remember what it was like before facebook when we had to call/text friends to stay in touch? I was even a letter-writer! Now I have lots and lots of old friends at my fingertips. Yeah, this is a lot easier....
Anyway, a small group of us are going to Mon Ami Gabi for dinner - it's in the Paris hotel. Hooray for French cuisine. After that there is a huge party at our place. Should be fun!
Happy Birthday JohnnyVirgo! I celebrate your existence every single morning. I LOVE YOU!!
Ok. That being said, it's time to go back to sleep. Or maybe make coffee and swim... or maybe work on my run sheet.... or watch 30 Rock.... soooo many choices. Ahhhhh... *contented sigh*
ohhhh psst... Wanna listen to what I am listening to right now? Go Here. (Richie's newest online track. Cool mashup. I believe he's calling it Zee Bob Cast)
Tuesday, September 14
Opening Doors
Well here I am, at the last day of my first week as part of the Zu krew. Still loving it. Still wanting more.
Last night was interesting. We had an artist go out moments before she was to be onstage. Mayhem ensued. Not the SM's. They were all calm and quick and moved like a force of nature. I was grateful to Robin, who was backstage with me. I had earlier in the night been very cocky and said..." I'll be fine. You don't need to shadow.?" She did anyway, THANK GOODNESS. Whoa. Once I learn who everyone is and where they are at every given moment, I'll be ok too. They tell me last night was what is more normal for this show. Things happen quick and line up changes come fast and furious. I had been lulled into a false sense of security earlier in the week. Well I know better now! This is a fast-paced world I have stepped into. It's sink or swim for sure. I feel like I am doing ok. I'm keeping my head above water, which is all I can do right this minute. I'll get better at this. I have no doubt.
One of my pals recently noted: Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls. (Joseph Campbell). This seems to be holding true for me these days. The world is my oyster. I can do anything I set my mind to. It's pretty cool to Feel this way. I like this Dance.
You should try it.......
Last night was interesting. We had an artist go out moments before she was to be onstage. Mayhem ensued. Not the SM's. They were all calm and quick and moved like a force of nature. I was grateful to Robin, who was backstage with me. I had earlier in the night been very cocky and said..." I'll be fine. You don't need to shadow.?" She did anyway, THANK GOODNESS. Whoa. Once I learn who everyone is and where they are at every given moment, I'll be ok too. They tell me last night was what is more normal for this show. Things happen quick and line up changes come fast and furious. I had been lulled into a false sense of security earlier in the week. Well I know better now! This is a fast-paced world I have stepped into. It's sink or swim for sure. I feel like I am doing ok. I'm keeping my head above water, which is all I can do right this minute. I'll get better at this. I have no doubt.
One of my pals recently noted: Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls. (Joseph Campbell). This seems to be holding true for me these days. The world is my oyster. I can do anything I set my mind to. It's pretty cool to Feel this way. I like this Dance.
You should try it.......
Monday, September 13
Swimming
So I live in a house with a pool. I LOVE THIS. (I'm so lucky Jamie is letting me stay with her!!!)
Today while I was swimming the song Beautiful Stranger came on. This is when I came to the realization that I am in love with a beautiful Stranger - - Zumanity. It's like a love affair. I have had a crush on it for quite a while. I think I saw it for the first time about 3 or 4 years ago. Clark gave me tickets so Matt and I could go for our anniversary. It was SO COOL! The acts that I remembered most were Waterbowl and Straps. I just couldn't get it out of my mind. Then when Gruber offered me the chance to play in his sandbox, my lust for Zu intensified. I had to know it. I had to experience it. When the kind SM team invited me to shadow, I was in heaven. Gone was the puppy love and in was the obsession.
Now here I am. Dancing with Zu every night. Swimming into deep waters, if you will. I can see a long relationship with this place. The people are fantastic. The job is interesting and exciting. Even though I know it will become routine, I don't think I will get into a rut. There are too many variables.
Thank you Zu. Thank you Gruber, Emily, Robin, Jess and Niki. (My SM team). Thank you Matty and Clark and Jamie and all of you who encouraged me to take this plunge!
Life is good. Enjoy.
Today while I was swimming the song Beautiful Stranger came on. This is when I came to the realization that I am in love with a beautiful Stranger - - Zumanity. It's like a love affair. I have had a crush on it for quite a while. I think I saw it for the first time about 3 or 4 years ago. Clark gave me tickets so Matt and I could go for our anniversary. It was SO COOL! The acts that I remembered most were Waterbowl and Straps. I just couldn't get it out of my mind. Then when Gruber offered me the chance to play in his sandbox, my lust for Zu intensified. I had to know it. I had to experience it. When the kind SM team invited me to shadow, I was in heaven. Gone was the puppy love and in was the obsession.
Now here I am. Dancing with Zu every night. Swimming into deep waters, if you will. I can see a long relationship with this place. The people are fantastic. The job is interesting and exciting. Even though I know it will become routine, I don't think I will get into a rut. There are too many variables.
Thank you Zu. Thank you Gruber, Emily, Robin, Jess and Niki. (My SM team). Thank you Matty and Clark and Jamie and all of you who encouraged me to take this plunge!
Life is good. Enjoy.
Sunday, September 12
Dancing
As I dive into this new life of mine, I have been thinking a lot of about Dancing. Life is a dance. Relationships are a dance. Even everyday interactions between people are a dance. I never thought about life like that before. Music is all around me and has been for most of my adult life. I call cues from music. I take cues from music. But I had not really Listened to music.
This new gig of mine is even more entrenched in music that any other gig before. Everything is a Dance and everyone Dances. I love it!
Day two complete and was even more fun than day one. I am looking forward to going in and learning MORE MORE MORE. I am so far out of the rut that I had dug in my life that I can hardly See it anymore. This is an awesome feeling.
Just have time for a swim before work. Lovely weather here. The locals tell me it will stay like this for the rest of this month. What a lovely month to move to Las Vegas. What a lovely life I have. THANK YOU, UNIVERSE!!!!
Benford’s Law of Controversy: Passion is inversely proportional to the amount of real information available.
This new gig of mine is even more entrenched in music that any other gig before. Everything is a Dance and everyone Dances. I love it!
Day two complete and was even more fun than day one. I am looking forward to going in and learning MORE MORE MORE. I am so far out of the rut that I had dug in my life that I can hardly See it anymore. This is an awesome feeling.
Just have time for a swim before work. Lovely weather here. The locals tell me it will stay like this for the rest of this month. What a lovely month to move to Las Vegas. What a lovely life I have. THANK YOU, UNIVERSE!!!!
Benford’s Law of Controversy: Passion is inversely proportional to the amount of real information available.
Saturday, September 11
First day... CHECK!
No easy day learning the space for this grrrl! My boss is a very old pal. He feels like "getting your feet wet" is for sissies. I'm no sissy. Which way to the deep end??
Day = Arrive, Company Meeting, Meeting two (can't spell it yet; something like Taperouge), Get ready for first show, do first show, scarf some dinner, do second show, clean up. Go home like I'm floating on air. Sleeeeeep.
I was so excited for the last week or so that I had been sleeping about 5 hours per night. This grrrl needs a bit more time to recharge her batteries. Last night I fell into bed around 2am and didn't get up until noon! Finally a release from all the nervous tension.
I'm still getting my bearings. I am sure I will be for a while. This job is, in fact, everything I wanted it to be. I feel like I can do this for a while. I like all the fast-paced, figure it out, DO IT NOW parts. I just need to get the layout of the building in my muscle memory. Lots of running around to be done. Lots of running up and down stairs. (Those of you who know me; stop snickering!)
I am starting a new life. It is happymaking! I seem to be rising to the challenge. Heh. One of my pals used the phoenix legend to describe his yesterday. Yeah. I think so too. I was reborn out the ashes of my old life in the past 48 hours. I like it.
Here is a photo from the Zumanity 7 year Birthday party two nights ago.
(Left to right, back to front) Emily, Angi, Robin, John, Niki, Jess, Jamie
Theses are the characters in my new life Game! Of course there are more. My Clark is here and was hovering near me when he can...giving me encouragement and silliness.
I am missing some of the old (and not so old) players in my Game. But I always am. Being a gypsy means leaving people/places/things behind is the norm. Luckily in this age of technology I can reconnect as often as possible. Skype has been my bestie for a while now. Even more since I moved to Vegas.
I should go. Must shower, buy a belt, buy some insoles and run back to the circus! Yay Circus!
xoxo
Day = Arrive, Company Meeting, Meeting two (can't spell it yet; something like Taperouge), Get ready for first show, do first show, scarf some dinner, do second show, clean up. Go home like I'm floating on air. Sleeeeeep.
I was so excited for the last week or so that I had been sleeping about 5 hours per night. This grrrl needs a bit more time to recharge her batteries. Last night I fell into bed around 2am and didn't get up until noon! Finally a release from all the nervous tension.
I'm still getting my bearings. I am sure I will be for a while. This job is, in fact, everything I wanted it to be. I feel like I can do this for a while. I like all the fast-paced, figure it out, DO IT NOW parts. I just need to get the layout of the building in my muscle memory. Lots of running around to be done. Lots of running up and down stairs. (Those of you who know me; stop snickering!)
I am starting a new life. It is happymaking! I seem to be rising to the challenge. Heh. One of my pals used the phoenix legend to describe his yesterday. Yeah. I think so too. I was reborn out the ashes of my old life in the past 48 hours. I like it.
Here is a photo from the Zumanity 7 year Birthday party two nights ago.
(Left to right, back to front) Emily, Angi, Robin, John, Niki, Jess, Jamie
Theses are the characters in my new life Game! Of course there are more. My Clark is here and was hovering near me when he can...giving me encouragement and silliness.
I am missing some of the old (and not so old) players in my Game. But I always am. Being a gypsy means leaving people/places/things behind is the norm. Luckily in this age of technology I can reconnect as often as possible. Skype has been my bestie for a while now. Even more since I moved to Vegas.
I should go. Must shower, buy a belt, buy some insoles and run back to the circus! Yay Circus!
xoxo
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